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Another Friday,
as usual busy with my school work,
today school teacher busy with evaluation from Mr Zen,
mine would be tomorrow, 2nd period (senior two class),
shit...i haven't prepare anything yet...as my mind was so freaking blank now,
what shall i do now? haiz....i'm feeling sorry..
it was my fault after all,
i went out with mum and dad tis evening,
as i forget to tell hubby which shopping mall i was heading to,
i'm sorry about that...and i apologize,
indeed i feel sad when i saw his msg...
am i telling lies?
why would i tell lie as i am telling the truth?
no doubt, i did something bad and loses his trust..
is alright...just because of what i've did...
and i hurt his heart and feelings...
and i loses his trust...
sound ridiculous isnt?
someone i love, someone i care so much doubt on me,
for what i did, for what i said...
what should i do to get back his trust?
i'm having headache...
i could never ask anyone about this matter,
noone can help me...except me,myself,
for the past few years,
this matter never comes up to my mind,
and now i'm facing this problem..
so what shall i do next?
i'm confusing....
for the pass few years, for what i did for what i said,
it leads to now....and he let me know that,
i was wrong wrong wrong for the past few years,
yeap....i should never say something too straight forward to hurt someone's feeling,
i should never lose my temper towards someone i love,
i should never speak up too loud with someone i love,
i should let him know what i did and where am i,
i should let him know about what i think,what i want,
i agree....
my temper was really a piece of shit...
my words was really like a sharp knife...scraping marks,
my words was really like a roller coaster...up and down
so...
all i should do is to change change CHANGE,
would u give me some time to Change?
would u give in a little bit of Patience?
would u give in a little bit of trust?
would you?
i regret for spitting out those words,
and i made a big mistake,
i'm hurting his feeling again and again...
but what shall i do to make things better?
i really dono what shall i do now...
texting doesnt seems to be the better way to do so,
calling doesnt seems to be the right time to do so,
arrgh....i'm feeling so stressed up!!
not just of r/s thing but my work...
i really feel regret to make a mistake between us again,
really sorry for what i did...
just want to tell you ,
u walk into my life and changes me,
i really need u to be by my side,
indeed i wish it for forever..
u really play an important role in my part of life,
please dont doubt about my love for u..
i cant bear to lose u.....never!!
my life could never be perfect without you dear,
never would be.....without you!!
We've pass through our 7th months,
time flies isnt?
i always recall back how we spend our time together this 7 months,
i read back our msn chat logs....
u know what i found?
we've been chatting almost everyday, every hour....
i kinda miss those memorable time...
i bet you feel the same too right? i dono...maybe u dont..
however, the only thing i wish for is to be your bride,
stay by your side, be part of your life forever,
that is what i wish for...now and ever.....
you could never be a substitute....
as noone could ever replace your place in my heart..
and hubby, i meant it!!
Last but not least,
thanks for being there for me when i needed u,
thanks for being my supporter when i seek u,
thanks for being my hubby always...
i'll never find someone like you,
i wanna be here with you, forever...
my heart belongs to you...
all i have is just my heart and my feelings i give to you..
i'll never find someone like you,
cos i love the way you are....
at this moment, i knew i'm missing you so much...
hey 好久不见
1 year ago